gates of awakening: A journey through the initiations

I call them gates because that is what they became in my life: 

distinct thresholds separating what came before from what came after.

Two events, more than five years apart, became bookends to an extraordinary chapter of my life.

The First Gate, on January 13, 2020, involved a Near Death Experience (NDE) / Out of Body Experience (OBE) that blew open my understanding of reality—and caused me to begin questioning everything I thought I knew. 

It also brought the vision for Blueprint HOPE.

I stepped through that gate into a five-and-a-half-year journey I never could have anticipated:

otherworldly experiences while simultaneously living in the physical world, explorations of consciousness and spirituality, extraordinary synchronicities, and the surfacing of repressed memories—specifically MK-Ultra memories. 

There were also periods of intense targeting, attacks and profound disruption by dark aligned forces. 

I also experienced a lot of betrayal.

Through it all, one thread remained—and remains to this day:

bringing Blueprint HOPE into the world.

Then, on June 19, 2025, came the Second Gate.

This gate didn't open my world.

This gate took my world away—literally.

I lost everything—

my home, my belongings, my cherished cats (my family), my employment, my Jeep, my records, and my digital history. 

What remained was my phone, a small travel wallet with minimal identification, and the comparatively small amount of digital data that happened to have survived in the cloud.

I still don't have words for everything that happened at that gate. Nor do I fully understand what happened that day or why...or the full extent of the ramifications of all I've lost.

But it taught me the law of impermanence in a way no spiritual teaching ever could.

Not as philosophy.

As lived experience.

Two gates.

Two very different thresholds.

More than five years between them. 

And a journey that changed how I understand reality, myself, and the work I came here to do. 

The story below begins at the First Gate.